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Perhaps it’s a vain attempt at throwing some light and logic at something, well, twisted. Me, being sane, being therefore branded “insane” as the odd one out of an insane society, “it’s black therefore it’s white” and to say not is a heresy. Twisted, in other words. Perhaps it’s a way of suffering more humiliation,…

Ostracised, not fitting in: An intellectual dilemma,  a line of argument that run thus: am I wrong so and so? yes, you’re WRONG Cal. So I wanted to see thru their eyes. To listen thru their ears, And all I heard was a litany, Yes, you’re WRONG, Cal. And it troubled me, Set doubt on…

In the absence of physicality In the civil strife that risks my heart I make of her a spiritual body To trace with my pen and soul Like two dark, midnight jewels Set upon an olive mask Her eyes were set upon my soul I happened upon In a dry, bloodless desert As a temple…

I suppose I could construct a book with a full stop at the end, with this topic. But as usual I’ll remain a pastiche, unacademic, personal, and inconclusive. I wrote a while back, “Elohim is in love with the goddess.” Perhaps I was thinking of an unhierarchical circularity of the shiva/shakti paradigm. It was of…

What if I’m right half the time and wrong half the time? Like a kayak in a green sea. Yet if I can calm a storm, like Amerghin, I still have found a home. Where am I? In the goddess sea, nowhere transcendent, my peace, my body. Finding ancient wisdom stored in flesh, always young.…

My first memory is looking at a roof. A face looms over, pulling stupid expressions, and I’m angry, knowing I’m about to embark on an unfortunate life. And them the wind began, beating against my body, assaulting my senses, mind, trying to destroy my emotion and what was INSIDE. Step after step, falling, rising, the…

…and tho to and fro The pathways through the sky Are spread light and dark Blessed, blessed am I, So deeply loved (A pigeon peeps thru the door, ha!) So I love (No longer holding back, look!) Here I am now I’m your angel I am bursting forth like a ray From earth’s core Like…

Everywhere As if you hung in the air Before the light Beckoning me forward and on Softly Like snowfall in summer This image of you Melts my sanity Burns me I go out in the buzzing heat The aching rain To return home alone again, Wandering, lost in thoughts that fly To your image, everywhere…

For about 30 years now, my sexuality has been violated by nearly everyone. It’s a myth, and should be an human rights abuse that a lesbians sexuality is always in question. I get it worse than most, but I’ll tell you my story is just the beginning. It started in high school…because it was uncool…

I have been pushed so often And risen each time I feel like the sun every morning Climbing For love the madness, the jeers and lies For her glance That stops time. A romantic candle Ascension of the spirit Roads of tar sense That lead inside, now Trusting The great goddess, for me Her feminine…