FIGHTING THE STATE 16 HUMILIATION AS STATE COERCION

Anxiety is fd up

Look at the rapist
I got 12-15 lessons off it, a few years ago, and its built its entire life around humiliating me in public
I tell myself, dont go red, dont salivate, dont smile
But if you get blamed for something regardless of what you do
Such as leaving your house and walking for 45 minutes then that rapist turns up in a car, and people say youre stalking it
You do exactly those things, you go red, you salivate, you get a smile
Its a perfectly healthy reaction, and shows i care what other people think. It would be worrying if i didnt react
For example it wouldnt matter how i was walking, now they film me walking away, so i get self conscious about how i walk now
In some ways its worse than schiz, least schiz isnt based on real things

Such as a state using social humiliation as a political strategy to silence dissent or rebellion