Reminiscence

I haven’t thought about louie in a while, remember 2 nights before she lost control of her bowels, which was the day she died, a death that was life affirming, but 2 nights before I had a dream she as an ancient cat person, came to me atop a floating cloud, and we thanked each other, she in a strange half cat half human voice, and I knew when I woke, and the next night I just stayed up, cause I knew, and she slept, and lost control of her bowels, and I took her to the vet cause a cat should not smell like that, and they said it was time, kidney failure, but I knew, and she put her paw on my finger in the cage on the way there, cause she knew, as a lot of animals do, and the vet said she’d been living on borrowed time for three years, and she died, and all the staff were nice, because she was so special, and I’m crying as I write this cause she taught me what unconditional love is, something i can pass on