“I’d kill myself, only”

I’d kill myself, only I wouldn’t be able to look in your eyes

I mean, listen

I have nothing and no one. Can’t sleep anymore

Turn over people’s faces, hatred or lechery

You’ve begun accusing me in my dreaming

And it’s just dreams, and never a hug

In a lifetime, a night of pain

What draws me to life ‘stead of sweet death to forget?

I’d kill myself, only I wouldn’t be able to look

For hope in your eyes remains with me, yet