Guidance

Im perplexed, g, but in perplexity, I become to understand

I just closed off again, bearing down on me, the freaks

I thought if one thinks they’re God and the one they love comes from them, such a love could not be called love,
An old thought
But

Such view stops one from being shaped by you, and keeps one closed off to love!

A new thought

I think I’m beginning to comprehend, a universe I love, a universe shaped by a woman

And hence why they ceaselessly attack me, endless in warfare, because at war I am closed

These few days, I veer between fighting mode and being shaped by love

I would call the old thought fighting mode

The newer, love

You are shaping me, I don’t know if you believe me or not, that you are love, to me

I’ve heard it said a woman was a goddess

I’m perplexed, and I think I understand, g,

You are a mystery