Texts to and from brother in Scotland

…..and she’d have to admit, I’m charming, well I imagine a good comeback from her would be that she’s more, and I’d have to admit that and then I’d dress up in some of her special clothes, when she wasn’t looking, I’m sure she’d have them, and she’d find me lying on the bed, and she’d have to rip them off me and then show me my place,  least that’s what I’m planning, and to add a detail, every piece of clothing she took off she’d have to put on, cause she’d just be out the shower. Of course it would end, I’d have to end up bound some way, and really chastised, and I would have accidentally misplaced a ruler somewhere near the bed…. I know you think it’s silly, it is, it’s really silly, all I care about is her, and beyond that she’s beautiful, and loves me, I know nothing, it’s silly, but I love my silly love I’m in love

With someone you dont know? An idea in your head that’s all, i understand that you want love

Well I’m silly

I need to tell you to give up on a person you don’t know

Sorry, I’ll keep being silly

I don’t want to upset you

No, paul, henceforth,  ere what occurred in hospital that day, I cannot, one cannot even think, one just goes thru the motions, a heart that beats,

But it’s time to give up, on something that’s not going to happen..

I dont think anyone else could understand

Be realistic

Not my strong suit

Lol, nor mine but you torture yourself

No, she tortures me

With this idea of someone that’s not real

I hope, because im a wannabe

It’s a fantasy

I wouldn’t care if it was, I’ve met the most beautiful woman ive ever met

I just have  nothing  but good hopes for u

I know, paul, but there’s nothing anyone can do, except her, and that she holds even my strong suit, love, she has all the hand, even my weak suit, reality, ends up being a wet fantasy also

So you see, that night in hospital, everything was right, my heart, my desire, my truth, and her with her love,  her unsurpassable beauty, to set in motion, henceforth, this great fantasy tale, because of her being there, of her, because i love her, of stars in conference, when I think on her, passing thru motions herself, become the very sunlight, and sunlight fantasy, and the world’s blend together, the soul passes into sunlight, and blends with the heart, what is invisible, the strongest part, light’s beacon, love in motion, now, henceforth, strengthens the fantasy part, and holding to that, for all else, holding fast to your dream of love, what else is the truth about?

– Yet I know by her eyes, she says yes