Things are not always what they seem

We’re born into a patriarchal order of which I digressed to the point of self inquiry, what has now become love, and perhaps a unit of two women.

Yes, I have been raped several times, beaten countless and suffer public humiliation on a daily basis. Aah, but I became a public enemy the moment I decided to rule myself to find myself.

My philosophy is not Buddhism and such. It reflects my own self: Goddess – ipseity – goddess – Love – goddess – woman I love.

It is never meant to preach, but to contest and interrogate. To ask questions not answer them.

So throughout my struggles, I have learned Nature and the body are not bad. If something gives you a great feeling, even being kinky, it is not necessarily a bad thing.

Perhaps being between two women, it would be almost criminal to say there was never any male constellation in this world.

Perhaps feminists crave a male moralist who will come and save the day.

To say you love a woman just like a goddess, and being one yourself, well perhaps that’s even “bad”.

My inquiry, like I said, is moving into the physical. Hopefully two will be one, and I will find the essence I am seeking.

I feel so good, on every level. It cannot be “bad”.

Cal Kalve